Letter to him     Pardon me for inconveniencing your time in the chat room.  So I've shrunk your screen once again.  I had wanted to wish you a good day but the anger welling within me would only kill the day for us both, so I decided to not chase you this time.  I always chase you and you offer me an excuse for that.  Emails are appreciated but you don't like doing those.  So rather than contact you, I'll just write about you in my journal, until one day, I don't.  It's all on you.  In my own defense, I withdraw as completely as I am able.  This time, I'll keep my spirit.

We Build This Society

The abstract has claimed morality and the absolute all virtue while we build our society on tolerance and compromise and have made Economy our King.      Chelle

Forgotten But Not Gone

Sometimes I call to argue, sometimes just to  listen, but my feelings stab me when I can't call; or when I do call, I only listen to the stroke of keyboards, a grunt of dismay due to some wide hipped woman's retorts in an environment I no longer belong.  The laughter I long to hear comes because some other crazy woman talks with a kooky accent like Ms. Quan from Mad TV--again from that same environment I don't belong in.  So while the Odella's and Marnie's of this world reach the heights of their success, I'm forgotten, but note, I'm not gone--just elsewhere searching for an environment where I belong. 

I wanted attention, just equal time as those who cause such great chagrin, but I don't warrant that because I exist, for one, much better in a visual that stimulates remote memories.  They all have each other when they need sympathy, but I'd much prefer a long embrace.  I'd prefer to discuss it but I'm denied what others are so freely allowed.  Would it matter?  Where an explanation would help out, I'd probably get another excuse and once again have the blame shifted on me.  Yes, we used to connect so well, but now he has no time, got got got, got no time--no time left for me.

so another oil tanker is missing...hm

So another tanker is missing.  Seems to me that one went missing a month ago and whatever happened to the huge ass dynamite cache stolen in Northern California (shasta area) two years ago?  Hey, did we ever find that tenth plane that was missing back on Sept 11th, 2001?   And the news wonders if this is part of a terrorist act?  Yes...yes it is.
I don't know how to find the lost or missing articles today, but to find any that might go missing in our future, I suggest we employ "On Star" technology and put tracking devices in all tankers, planes, boats, and rail.  Track our assets consistently.   We have no excuse for missing explosives, missing chemicals, and missing vehicles. 

You are no swine--savor with me

Benevolent pursuer, chaser of my reasoning, hunter of beauty; oh, grand devourer of all sorrows, my joy and my song; I dance with you my grandest lover and I call upon you always, "Peace!...come lay at my breasts."

                                             By Chelle

Jim told me bravado is a good thing.   I asked him why.  He said, " It keeps boys from crying."  We were speaking of what war is like.

Return to Sept. 11th

Listening to this commission get to the bottom of what was said days after the planes became bombs.  The FBI and CIA both admitted then they hadn't been able to assess all the different information each agency had piling up.  In other words, they didn't know what they were looking at.

3 am Sept 11th I woke from a series of dreams about being buried in concrete and steel.  I got out of bed and recorded the dream. Turned the TV on only to find out ten planes were unaccounted for.  Remember this point--ten planes were announced on our news to be unaccounted for.

Those who needed to know  did know, but 2 to 3 hours before it all came down.  What choice were we given?  We could have had our military shoot our domestic flights out of the sky and have the entire world come unglued (bin Laden would dig that) or we could let the terror point to the way terrorists handle getting their way.  All this happened because terrorism is far better organized and focused than freedom is.

Now lets quit this shit and go put an end to the lives of the millions who will ultimately rise again and again and again...