Thursday, December 29, 2005

Linda's Birthday- A Breath of Goodness

Linda reminded me that life is about building relationships. Each of us has only one life to live and I'm pretty sure whoever said that originally is right.

Along the way our character comes under seige and we are made stronger for it is the essence of how we build all our tomorrows.

Some spoke of weapons and I went off on a thought tangient as I considered the role of women in regard to our right to bear arms. Women must have them but great responsibility comes with that liberty. As the nurturers of this world, we women must use our weapons only for the defense of ourselves and our loved ones so it is also up to us to widen our scope of loved ones.  Vengence is neither a liberty nor a privlege; therefore as women,dignity must triumph for vengence is never an option.

The very best thing about Linda's party was seeing things through the eyes of others.  Ya know, good people make a splendid difference to what is seen.  My soul is still overflowing having been filled by the true goodness of those I spent time with.  I'm a reflection of their collective beauty.  I'm so blessed because I've found the divine in one person and ever since I'm surrounded by the divine in others.  Yes, I've found myself.

Ya know, there are times when experience surpasses the wisdom of sages just as there are times when experience is weight.  I wonder if wisdom is ever a weight. (selah)

Yes, wisdom can be a burden especially when one has a knowlege that others turn their backs on.  What can one do but to live that wisdom. Just live and evolve spiritually.  Love for love is an expression of good living.  Love can be a fruit of life too. 

Then there are our intentions, the direct will of our spirits.  Intentions, if we have any conscience, are the salt of all our experiences and the sum total of having lived. 

Linda blessed me by sharing her love, her experience and herself.  For that reason, I'm so very blessed. Happy happy birthday, dear Linda. 

Love,

Chelle

 

Monday, December 19, 2005

Funny Conversations at the Mitchell Brother's Holiday Party and Wake

Dan O'Neill drove us to an event I won't forget which took place at the O'Farrel Mitchell Brother's Theatre.  There I met for the second time in my life a man named Jim Mitchell.  He was a conservative looking dapper man, elegant in fact.  I tried not to stare at him much because the last memory I have of him is from 30 years ago.  He looks so different now, much more polished and he seems shorter in stature than I remember him.  I was just 17 when I met him and I met him in Berkeley while traveling with a man named Jerry Allaire who was owner of Undulator Water Beds.  Jerry's son was my boyfriend at the time.  Back in those days I couldn't go to Berkeley without being chased down for my autograph, well not my autograph but Marilyn Chamber's.  Apparently there is a strong resemblence in our looks. I'm told that there still is, not only by friends who used to watch her movies but by those who attended the gig yesterday.

My dear friend Ted Richards was unable to attend this party and wake due to some personal trauma he and his beloved wife are suffering but he gave me a heartfelt message to give both to Jim Mitchell and to a dear friend of his named Vinnie, well toVinnie's family.  Vincent had died and was one of the gents we celebrated yesterday.  So, I had a few drinks and watched all the people clamor around for the attention of the proprietor and his entourage.  Time was passing too quickly and I tried to gain some peace to address these folks on Ted's behalf.  I could wait no longer so I walked up behind Mr. Mitchell and rested my head upon his shoulder.  I whispered into his ear that Ted truly wanted to be there for him but that his wife was undergoing dramatic eye surgery because her retina suddenly blew out and left her blind.  I explained how he also wanted me to celebrate a man named Vinnie's life and to say how much he misses Vinnie that Vinnie had made a huge impact on who Ted is today.  Jim Mitchell told me thank you and informed me that the people in the circle he was talking to were Vinnie's family. At first I was surprised that I had such good fortune but then I scoulded myself because I know more than most that there is no such thing as coincidence but that all things of a "chance" nature are part of a universal synergy.  So I walked up behind this petite blonde beauty and put my head on her shoulder as she spoke.  I asked her to keep speaking but to listen to me.  I spoke to her personally the same words I spoke to Jim.  She finished her conversation and then quickly turned to me.  I felt rude as though I had intruded but the look in her eyes was gracious and warming.  So many people wanted to talk to this beautiful lady, but for a brief moment, she took time to let Ted's words comfort her and made me feel at home.  She expressed her gratitude and asked me to tell Ted how much those words meant to her.  That feeling, that intimate moment, means so much to me even as I type these words.  Later, a young beautiful man whom I had seen on stage, walked up to me.  I recognized him as one of the comedians and he introduced himself as Vincent's son.  He was touched that I took the time to bring them comfort.  If only he knew how hard it was for me to do this.  I felt so intrusive.  I told him I was the one who heckled him and we chuckled together.  Man was this young fellow beautiful.  Vincent must have been quite a man to have such wonderful friends as Ted Richards and such loving people for a family.  There was no pretense amongst them and I again scolded myself for being so anxious.  I should have known that they would be gracious.  Maybe it was the environment I was in, maybe it was because I was in a sandwiched generation where I had been slightly younger than all those present or too old for the new crowd.

After that little episode I went back to the theatre rooms and spoke to an Irish man next to me.  We were the wallpaper in the back of the darkened theatre.  We spoke of Vinnie and some people came out of the backstage area dressed in costumes.  They made us drink an elixer and eat a wafer.  It was a communion of sorts, a debaucherous kind.  <smile>  I went back out to the main area and watched quietly.  The forces were forming and who were they?  A group of politicals, Irish in viewpoints.  I stood there getting angry because these men whom I care for very much seemed to have all the "right" answers as they spoke of the way things are now here in America.and their remedy was the same old stuff that hasn't worked for Ireland and England over the centuries.  It pisses me off that America is left to fight the fight they never resolved.  I felt that Liberty and I stood alone, silenced by the intentions of others. An Irish man whom I now know was an enemy to my fired up political pals, had taken notice of me.  He told me I was one sexy Irish woman.  I fired off indignantly, "I sir, am an American woman and I'm pissed off right now."  He looked over to those who were dear to me and scoffed.  That should have been my first warning.

From there I went into a diatribe as he and I spoke of things political in nature. I began to heave out a storm of tears and anguish. We all speak of revolution but even revolution has never brought us answers or solutions, only attention and heartache amidst needless death. I said, America is better than this.  I asked, "What good is freedom without Liberty?  Freedom is merely a disclaimer at the bottom of some writ executed on the backs of innocents."  I sobbed and hid behind the man so my friends wouldn't see me in that state.  He said lets go to where we can talk about this in privacy.  He pulled me into the darkened room lit only with red lights titled "Copenhagen."  Every time I spewed forth my anguish that Liberty is alone without anyone to defend her I sobbed out of control.  Anger was my companion and true absolute grief. He sought to get down my pants in order to comfort me.  I looked at the red light above my head and thought, I'm better than this and this man seeks my fruits but hasn't the decency to listen to my message.  So I walked out but not until I had asked, " Do you have my back?"  His answer was no.  He maintained that I am an Irish woman but I can't remember the phrase he used.  It was derrogatory in essence and offended me, as though being Irish is such a bad thing.  It was a remnant of a fight I never took part in for I am an American, Irish only in descent.  I laugh today because this is the stuff I always seem to find on my pathway of truth.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Love Exchanged For Understanding

The most difficult people are those who are unable to hear the message you bring to them.

Some only hear what they have come to expect of others and rarely anticipate a differing perspective; therefore, they sell their self and everyone else short.

Some hear only the sound of their well rehearsed voice. For those types, life is neatly stored in compartments of their experience, nothing left to question, no answers to be sought.

There are those who hear with their eyes and what cannot be seen simply does not exist.

My heart mourns the loss of their audience, for on the best of days, they are handicapped. I've spent my life attempting to understand; with my eyes closed I've even heard the heartbeat of those near me and with my eyes fixed, I've heard the powerful message of their body language.  With speech I provoke thought in order to dredge up any understanding available to me.

Understanding, the most precious neccessity of empathy, is what I've thirsted for.  Without empathy, I have no purpose to live.  Love, the most precious gift is lost on those who are steeped in self-indulgent apathy.  In the company of such people, I spend love foolishly for they suspect those bearing gifts for the souls refinement just as they forget boxed presents from years gone by.

Yet I spend my love on them until I come to some kind of understanding; and so it is with me, the foolish spender of love, daring to love those with pat responses and preconceived notions.  My heart grieves, for I am not saint. I'm merely spending what I have plenty of-love.

By Chelle Stockman

Sunday, November 20, 2005

So glad to be alive

Everyone!  I wish to share something with you. I stepped outside tonight- to smoke.  I was in deep thought, thoughts of God; thoughts to God.  I thought of my neighbor and of myself, two people who love God very much.  I thought of my transgressions and began to speak out loud with the stars as my audience. 

I'm not perfect but I do get things right now and then.  I don't blame and don't believe in excuses.  I am a woman of intent and don't dismiss much as a mistake.  I am what I am, a woman on a personal journey.

Truth is important and tonight the Holy Spirit met with me as the celestials witnessed.  Mercy and compassion, the spark of the living, this was how I was touched tonight.  I figure that I want to live a very long life because there is so much to learn and I'm unafraid.  But, repentence takes time, therefore for me, it will be neccessary to live a long life.  I'm unafraid of sin so long as the Holy Spirit is here.  I trust with all my heart that the Spirit is powerful enough to lead me to transformation.

Thank you.   I had to share and now I'm going back out to think some more.

Friday, November 18, 2005

A Call For Action

In the face of global capitalism and the redefining of democracy, liberty is fading away into the shadows of fascism. Corporations have freedoms their consumers do not have such as paying 16 cents to the dollar of taxes owed; meanwhile, procuring hefty tax breaks that aren't passed down to the consumer.   They supply our wants on the backs of the world's desperate and jack up the cost of our needs, the resources we must have to survive in this world today.   They buy legislation that allows them to accomplish their goals to have the entire world under the umbrella of a Global Order.   Everyone from the purchased presidents down to the illegal immigrant slaves serve the interests of these corporations.

With all the technological advances this world has seen, and renewable energy sources more readily available, these mega-conglomerates and their subsidiaries  continue to fight us on alternative energy sources that are more environmentally friendly. This leads me to believe that the wars we fight today are more about profiting off the control of natural resources which we are all beholden to than they are about democracy.   Would America purchase goods and resources from the rest of the world if they knew the role mercenaries of these corporations play?   Would Americans do so if they knew the methods used such as starting divisions amongst people indigenous to the areas where our resources come from?    Would America be OK with these activities if they knew the corporations are also proliferators of evil?   I'm not sure I can handle the answer to those questions.

I urge you, our representatives, to stand up to this man with a mandate whom we call our President, and levy the truth and consequences of his actions on behalf of, not only the world at large, but more specifically, the liberty that belongs to Americans here at home.

If the Democrats are publicly accused of handling information irresponsibly in regard to their initial support of going to war on the grounds of WMD, then the President must admit publicly through all veins of media how he was the avenue of the faulty information.   He must admit that as the "elected"  head of the chain of command, he failed to bring the full and examined truth to America and the rest of the world.

His goal was always to dispose of Saddam Hussein.   His father's goal was to do that in order to free the Iraqi people and pavethe way for them to join the Global Order.   That was his father's vision.   Since then, Bill Clinton also carried out that goal and fell short as his predecessor had.   His law H.R. 4655- "Iraq Liberation Act of 1998" never took hold in the minds of the average American and I wonder how many people of the Senate and Congress ever give thought to it.  

In G. W.  Bush's talk with Jim Lehrer on February 16, 2000, he shows us that he intended to go after Hussein.   He said, "I think we need to have inspectors back into Iraq, and I think we need to make it clear to Saddam Hussein we want them back into -- we need to make it clear to our allies we expect the inspectors back in to make sure he's not developing weapons of mass destruction."  He then went on to say, "I'm just as frustrated as many Americans are that Saddam Hussein still lives. I think we ought to keep the pressure on him. I will tell you this: If we catch him developing weapons of mass destruction in any way, shape or form, I'll deal with that in a way that he won't like."
Mr. Lehrer asked him, "Like what, bomb him?"
Bush responded, "Well, it could be one option. He just needs to know that he'll be dealt with in a firm way."

There is no way we can let President George Bush get off by admitting irresponsibility in the handling of "misinformation."  He, like his predecessors, was chomping at the bit to dispose of Saddam and set up a strategic position in Iraq.   When Sept. 11th brought us to a screeching halt, our President wasted no time in capitalizing on the egg of disaster the golden goose had laid.   He immediately exploited our fears and took us down a path of vengeance.   This implies intent.   Intent is not to be minimized as irresponsibility.   His intent involved selling Congress, the Senate, the American media, and people, a lie.   This most certainly is an impeachable offense.  

If we won't impeach this man, we must definitely speak to the truths that so far have been mishandled and whored by this media driven conspiracy.  

Democrats, it is time to stand together more firmly and speak out more eloquently than we have ever had to do before.   Let's do it now.

Thank you.

Chelle Stockman

 

 

Monday, November 14, 2005

Letter to the AOL Democrats RE: I've had enough.

Subj: Re: [AOLDemocrats] Oil firms see tax rates fall: Nice.  Date: 11/14/2005 8:37:24 AM Pacific Standard Time From: GoddessOf7Worlds To: AOLDemocrats@yahoogroups.com

I did something I rarely do early this morning.  I turned on Fox Fallacy News to see what spin they were putting on information they might have.  The show was Bulls and Bears, a financial advisory show (supposedly).  Every guest went on and on as the cameras zoomed in for the close-ups of them frothing.

The subject was the Democrats being unethical towards those poor oil fellows.  Apparently the Democrats were trying to hold them accountable for accounting activities and this had the pundits of the show in a frothy tither.  They were very upset for the oil corporations and said they have the right to make profits that the Democrats were just trying to make themselves look good to the little guy.  They explained that little guys own stocks in these oil corporations and that the little guys will see through this Democratic play on our emotions.

Never once did they say how the oil companies find the resources which usually involves the use of mercenaries and even military forces.  They never once spoke to the raping of the land in these countries where this valuable resource can be extracted.  They never once spoke to the displacement of the indigenous people of these lands nor did they speak to the destruction of our ecosystem.  They seem to have forgotten that this 43rd president promised us that by 2008 we would be using hydrogen power.  Below is just one of his three promises to we the people of the United States:
             "In this century, the greatest environmental progress will come about not through endless lawsuits or command-and-control regulations, but through technology and innovation. Tonight I'm proposing $1.2 billion in research funding so that America can lead the world in developing clean, hydrogen-powered automobiles."  G.W. Bush

For more of his broken promises, feel free to check out my journal. 
What's going on?   or if that link doesn't work.
        http://journals.aol.com/goddessof7worlds/Whatsgoingon/

Yesterday set me back a bit.  The History Channel re-aired an episode on the making of 9/11 and I suspect it was at the urging of the White House since the president is making his case against the Democrats and once again diverting the attention off of his failures.  The History Channel showed what individuals were doing on that morning prior to the attack of 9/11.  What they conspicuously left out was what our President was doing that day.  Enough said. 
This letter is going to be added to my blog today.  I've had enough of this administration's deceit and it is time we do something about it.

Thank you for letting me pitch my fit.

Chelle Stockman




Monday, October 31, 2005

This Man, Our President-His Promises

President Bush's State of the Union Speech 1-28-03

1)  This country has many challenges. We will not deny, we will not ignore, we will not pass along our problems to other Congresses, to other presidents, and other generations. We will confront them with focus and clarity and courage."

                           So far we haven't been able to do this and the mess we have authorized up til now won't begin to be paid for until the generation after the next.

2) 
"The tax relief is for everyone who pays income taxes -- and it will help our economy immediately: 92 million Americans will keep, this year, an average of almost $1,000 more of their own money. A family of four with an income of $40,000 would see their federal income taxes fall from $1,178 to $45 per year. Our plan will improve the bottom line for more than 23 million small businesses."

Check this out:   http://www.factcheck.org/article298.html

And as of today, November 1,  Bush is calling on Congress to tax the insurance plans of employees that have benefits from the companies they work for.  That is some incentive to work hoping for benefits.  Everything he touches hurts the little guy and makes them beholden to the crumbs the wealthy leave for us.

      
3)  "
We must work together to fund only our most important priorities. I will send you a budget that increases discretionary spending by 4 percent next year -- about as much as the average family's income is expected to grow. And that is a good benchmark for us. Federal spending should not rise any faster than the paychecks of American families."

But what actually happened is displayed in an interview with Mr. Russert and can be found @ www.factcheck.org/article139.html    

Russert: But your base conservatives -- and listen to Rush Limbaugh, the Heritage Foundation, CATO Institute, they're all saying you are the biggest spender in American history.

President Bush: Well, they're wrong.

Russert: Mr. President

President Bush: If you look at the appropriations bills that were passed under my watch, in the last year of President Clinton, discretionary spending was up 15 percent, and ours have steadily declined.

Fact Check explains:

Discretionary spending -- meaning spending that is subject to annual legislative appropriations, as opposed to spending for entitlement programs such as Social Security and Medicare -- actually grew only 5.6% in Clinton 's last budget year (fiscal year 2001, which began October 1, 2000Since then discretionary spending has not "steadily declined" as the President said, but has gone up. In fact, the growth has been much faster than under Clinton . Inthe firstyear for which President Bush signed the spending bills discretionary spending growth soared to 13.1%, and annual growth remained in double digits through the current fiscal year....    

Using Bolton's own figures, FactCheck.org calculates that the discretionary sums contained in appropriations bills signed by Bush for the current fiscal year -- including the $87 billion supplemental appropriation for Iraq -- amount to nearly a 36% increase over Clinton's last year.


4) 

"To improve our health care system, we must address one of the prime causes of higher cost, the constant threat that physicians and hospitals will be unfairly sued. (Because of excessive litigation, everybody pays more for health care, and many parts of America are losing fine doctors. No one has ever been healed by a frivolous lawsuit. I urge the Congress to pass medical liability reform."

Bush did not have to do this.  It is unfortunate, but this was a plan proposed to the Clinton administration on behalf of E. Lily Pharmeceuticals by some lobbiests.  President Bush awarded Lily the no bid contract for the Small Pox Vaccine and then passed through Congress a law keeping anyone from suing Lily or the administrators of the vaccine--no class actions allowed either which means absolutely no accountability. Sad.
5) 
"In this century, the greatest environmental progress will come about not through endless lawsuits or command-and-control regulations, but through technology and innovation. Tonight I'm proposing $1.2 billion in research funding so that America can lead the world in developing clean, hydrogen-powered automobiles. "

Yet he cut has cut $93 million dollars from the EPA's Science and Technology accounts.  These cuts include reductions in air, water, and toxics research and then cut nearly 5 mil more from the area that regulates and improves the eco systems that curtail endocrine disrupters, pesticides and toxics also down 7.7 mil.  He then raised the super fund 124 million which is to make the polluter responsible but failed to call for reinstatement of the fees by polluting companies and to make up that difference, it has come out of the taxpayers pockets. The evidence of his taking back his environmental promises which sounded sweet at first have turned to bitterness. He predicted that people would be using Hydrogen powered cars all over America by 2008 which would free us from being oil dependent.  Maybe he plans for us to withdraw from Iraq in 2008. 


6)"
I urge you to pass both my faith-based initiative and the Citizen Service Act, to encourage acts of compassion that can transform America, one heart and one soul at a time."

The concern I have is that with religious groups being subsidized federally to help others who are already guaranteed help from government sources, those churches are opening themselves up to being governed federally.  So much for that ol separation of church and state. 


7) "
There are days when our fellow citizens do not hear news about the war on terror. There's never a day when I do not learn of another threat, or receive reports of operations in progress, or give an order in this global war against a scattered network of killers. The war goes on, and we are winning. (Applause.) To date, we've arrested or otherwise dealt with many key commanders of al Qaeda. They include a man who directed logistics and funding for the September the 11th attacks; the chief of al Qaeda operations in the Persian Gulf, who planned the bombings of our embassies in East Africa and the USS Cole; an al Qaeda operations chief from Southeast Asia; a former director of al Qaeda's training camps in Afghanistan; a key al Qaeda operative in Europe; a major al Qaeda leader in Yemen. All told, more than 3,000 suspected terrorists have been arrested in many countries. Many others have met a different fate. Let's put it this way -- they are no longer a problem to the United States and our friends and allies. (Applause.) We are working closely with other nations to prevent further attacks. America and coalition countries have uncovered and stopped terrorist conspiracies targeting the American embassy in Yemen, the American embassy in Singapore, a Saudi military base, ships in the Straits of Hormuz and the Straits the Gibraltar. We've broken al Qaeda cells in Hamburg, Milan, Madrid, London, Paris, as well as, Buffalo, New York. We have the terrorists on the run. We're keeping them on the run. One by one, the terrorists are learning the meaning of American justice."

Nice words, but untrue.  Notice that since this speech was given, we had bombings in Madrid and London with growing threat in Paris.  As for Buffalo, New York, I noticed that the SBA office was located to Texas.  Could it be that whenever our President opens his mouth, people are attacked?  Just a thought. Do people in America really believe that terrorists give any thought at all to American Justice???

8)  "
The International Atomic Energy Agency confirmed in the 1990s that Saddam Hussein had an advanced nuclear weapons development program, had a design for a nuclear weapon and was working on five different methods of enriching uranium for a bomb. The British government has learned that Saddam Hussein recently sought significant quantities of uraniumfrom Africa. Our intelligence sources tell us that he has attempted to purchase high-strength aluminum tubes suitable for nuclear weapons production. Saddam Hussein has not credibly explained these activities. He clearly has much to hide. The dictator of Iraq is not disarming. To the contrary; he is deceiving. From intelligence sources we know, for instance, that thousands of Iraqi security personnel are at work hiding documents and materials from the U.N. inspectors, sanitizing inspection sites and monitoring the inspectors themselves. Iraqi officials accompany the inspectors in order to intimidate witnesses."

       What intelligence is he referring to?  The same intelligence we now know did not exist?  I mean, Libby didn't lie so many times for no reason at all did he?  Could that intelligence have come from Cheney's office?   We now know the only communique from our intelligence offices stated that there was no evidence that supported going to war on the grounds of WMD.  This is an impeachable lie. He didn't lie to a simple group like the grand jury.  He lied to our country and to the entire world.  Guess we have forgiven him, though he never asked for us to.

9)  "
We seek peace. We strive for peace. And sometimes peace must be defended. A future lived at the mercy of terrible threats is no peace at all. If war is forced upon us, we will fight in a just cause and by just means -- sparing, in every way we can, the innocent. And if war is forced upon us, we will fight with the full force and might of the United States military -- and we will prevail."

Well, 1979 American soldiers have died so far with 30 to 1 civilian Iraqis dying because of this war.  Peace.  Yeah.   Each day peace prevails with each new death.  Umhum. Yeah. Rest in Peace or is it rest in pieces?  Sometimes,  it is unclear what he really means to say.